episode 5 recap, & 6 review:
I feel it is safe to say that an edited version of my road trip to Ohio, Pa, and finally to IU University, did not do it justice. The trip, indeed, was much more fulfilling then it was edited down to. For those of you who I visited and filmed with so far, those of you that did or didn’t make the cut, I want you to know that it was a pleasure, and I do really appreciate meeting you and spending the time with you. If you didn’t make the cut, it very likely wasn’t anything you did or said wrong, but rather my own fault, or once the footage got to the editing room, we discovered that it just didn’t quite fit into where I was at that point in my Journey and the story I was telling. Elsie Buggy Ride in PA.
Take for example for instance, My trip to Wisconsin, coming up in episode 6, where a large part of it was spent filming with some friends in Willard, Wi, who have a Organization called the “Christian Motorcycle Association”. They went out of their way to give me a warm welcome home, and I did enjoy my time and had some life changing times with them. I would not have guessed that a motorcycle group could be so nice and God fearing! God Bless you guys, and you will not be forgotten!
Also, I tracked down one of my old scholars that I taught in school when I was Amish. We spent a Sunday together at the old school grounds talking about old times and why he left, and how I may or may not have changed his life. There is only one problem. During most of the time, we were sitting on opposite ends of a teeter totter board, and yes, going up and down. As you can imagine, once this got into the editing room, there was no way to make this scene work that has 2 grown men playing together on a child school playground that would work, if you know what I mean.
I was truly impressed by the differences in the Amish communities the farther East I traveled. It would appear that for the communities that have been established longer, they have truly adapted to the world much more. To have someone like Elsie work in a place like Kettle Village and drive tourists in an Amish buggy, and she is baptized in the Amish church was a miracle to me. I do not at all disagree with how the Amish live out there. As a matter of fact, I can appreciate it. In my area of the world, where the Amish are much more strict, they coincidentally are not as loved by the outside world. It seems like there is a disconnect in this area, where a place like Ohio and PA, where they interact more with the outside world, they are more accepted and loved. Could it be that at the end of the day, all it would take is for outsiders to understand the Amish and become a little more educated in them, their ways and beliefs, and once they understand them better, and the bridge is gapped a little?
Might I add that during this time, although it has seldom been touched upon since episode 1, I maintained my regular job at Joe Machens Toyota (www.joemachens.com) as a sales Professional. It was anything but an easy undertaking to go through a period in my life where I needed answers, and traveled quite a bit to get these answers, and still between events, churches, and buggy rides with Elsie, etc, I was also closing sales on my cell with customers back home who needed a car. Truly a challenging time for me to whittle this many things at once, but I wouldn’t do a thing different.
Joe Keim & Me in Ohio
I have never been prouder of Esther M then when she decided to follow her heart and the message from the Man above . I look at Esther M like a sister, and to me I was neutral on whether or not she pursues filming. All I wanted her to do is be happy and comfortable in whatever or where ever her path led her. I do have a strong feeling that her filming days aren’t over just yet though. At some time in her life, when the time is right, and she and God have found a medium for her, her career will take off.
My trip to Indiana University, which was what I was looking forward to, and got many answers to during my trip East, started anything but what I expected. I remember the day before the Lecture, I was coming down sick, and woke up the day of the lecture throwing up, with a migraine, and didn’t eat anything. After battling numerous demons, and talking to the man above at length, I decided to go ahead and do it anyway. I had written down about 10 topics to discuss, and since I had never done anything like this before, I figured to do what “Mr president” does. Stand in front of a podium, look at my paper most of the time, and look up once in a while. I discovered 10 seconds into it that I was gonna suck at this, so I disregarded the paper, and winged it. I actually spoke for probably 45 minutes, and took Q&A’s for another 15 or 20 minutes. It was a blast, and quoting the words of a my very worried field producer and cameraman, I knocked it out of the ball park.
Over the next few episodes, I will literally crawl into a hole and not answer any electrical device at all.
Episode 6 will be the hardest thing I’ve ever done! It is the most “Out of Control” of myself and my life I have ever been in my life! It will follow me going further into my past for answers and leads me to some unlikely places and I meet some unlikely people. As many of the viewers may have gathered by now, I have always struggled with my spirituality and whether God does or doesn’t love me since I left the Amish faith. I have always suffered and will probably will never be truly a happy person in the outside world because I have an Amish family and many, many Amish people back in the communities who disagree with the life I have chosen to live.
Will I find any answers during this trip, and will I mend any fences or close the gap even a little? Like I said earlier, I have never done anything this personal on TV before, and I am still torn up over it! I have no idea how it will be received, and speaking quite frankly, will once again, leave it to the Man upstairs. At the end of the day, he is the reason I am where I am in my life, and why I am doing what I am doing.
Let’s call it a mid life crisis. I think most people who have gone through some tramatic times, like I have, in life, reach a point where they can no longer push out, or ignore, those issues. Whether or not it was right or wrong of me to let a camera follow me during this personal time in my life, I may never know. However, I have never regretted any of it, and frankly, wouldn’t
My 3 ex Amish brothers and Me
go back and change any of my life. I am right where I am supposed to be!
Might I add, however, please keep the Emails and feedback coming. Hearing how I have inspired or changed someones life, makes it all worthwhile.
Until next time, Bleib Fescht in Glava.